Humbled...

When I first got to Northland to fill my room leader position, I found out I had a guy in my room who can be a bit "crazy" at times.  He will openly admit this quite often.  We had a lot of interactions with one another last year, specifically when working with one another on security.

I was excited to have him in my room, because he IS such a fun guy to be around, but at the same time I had some concerns.  God, however, just revealed to me that He has a specific purpose for putting me in this room with these roommates.

As a part of my responsibilities, I'm supposed to ask my roommates how they are doing in their bible reading.  It's a good way to help with accountability.  I'm often humbled by the fact that my roommates are doing better than me...

The roommate that I have alluded to, humbled me greatly in his response to my question.  He was completely open and honest with me about how he was doing.  I admit, at the beginning of our conversation I was taken aback by his struggles, and I was immediately judging him in my mind.

Only after hearing him expound on his struggles did I realize that he's struggling with these things because God's teaching him some tough lessons because he's willing and ready to listen to the promptings of the Holy Spirit.  God is working on him, and has brought him to a point that far surpasses my level of openness and spiritual walk with God.

So right now, I'm just humbled...I'm humbled before God because He revealed to me my own judgmental arrogance...and I'm humbled and motivated to seek the intimate relationship with God that my roommate has...I'm humbled especially because my idea of a room leader, is a spiritual leader as well...how am I in a position over this guy?  To tell you the truth, I know why I am, and that's only because I happen to be older, and possibly a little more self controlled than this guy...and while such an attribute may get me in a position of leadership...it does not help me so much in my spiritual walk...I can be completely self controlled...and yet have a heart that's so far from God...

I just wanted to share this with my followers...we will often in our lives interact with people who we judge...we exalt ourselves above them because we think we're better...but..."Be careful if you think you stand.  You just might be sinking..."

Comments

Me said…
Great post - great food for thought! It is so easy to be arrogant and judgmental, but humility only comes from the Lord. It is so exciting to read your blog and see how you are letting God grow you!!
Caleb said…
Good to hear how the Lord is working in your heart. I'm praying for you and hope you have a great semester!